"A work in progress" still under construction

Let me just say that I now understand the true meaning of this saying. "You cannot completely understand true Joy until you have experienced true grief." Those contrasts, opposites, define each other. When you have walked a path of true, deep, immoblizing grief the joy that comes in the morning is a joy that I have rarely experienced in my 40 years of living. I have lost loved ones. I know grief. But the grief of loving someone and having a dream all wrapped up in one and knowing all hope is lost....... that is something completely different. When my grandmothers and a dear dear friend passed away. I knew there was hope! I knew there was something, some place so much better waiting for them. But this adoption red-tape. This knowing that I could not fix it.

Well..... I trusted God.

I wanted to have hope.

I knew God could do it.

But would He?

That was the question.

That was the million dollar question.

Was this still his will for us and for Little G?

That dying inside that came with knowing He could but would he? My husband and I KNEW we werent to walk away until God said it was over. We continued to lean on Him and those baby steps were so tiny, minsicule. This joy is like the joy we had when our Biological children were born. I remember not being able to sleep for days. I just couldnt lie that little one down, the seconds were ticking and I didnt want to miss one! There are days that I take a look at the men and women that they are now and it takes my breath away. How did we get here?

Whew! This is BIG!



Let me give you some sweet details. You have been on this journey with me and you need to know more!

Our sweet "little G" was raised on a piece of property owned by Nate Saint or his family-cant remember those Exact details, now our Orphanage. Have you read "Through gates of Splendor" ? How about hear of Jim Elliot? Remember the movie in 2006 "End of the spear" Our little one has spent 4 years and misc. months here. I owned the book. The old, old copy written in the 50's. When our adoption agency Dir told me all this back in the Fall I went scrambling to find it and much to my dismay its gone. I dont know if I lent it out or it fell apart.......



This is an e-mail I got from one of the families IN Ecuador Adopting their son.:



Congratulations, Anna!!!

We are so thrilled for you guys and for "little G" We actually were standing next to Melinda, and J's going away party, when she got the call, so we knew the news on Friday afternoon. Everyone was SO happy for you and "Little G" when Melinda announced the news. "little G" got really excited and started clapping and laughing. For some reason she came over to me, so I picked her up and held her while she was clapping. It was a very special moment, and we were so glad that it happened while everyone was together for J's party. (note: names changed to protect the innocent)



'Yall. This is a glimpse of MY GOD!

Have I said, This is BIG?????



I keep waking up singing this song.

Bible verse on Sunday: Ephesians 2:10 "For we are his workmanship(GK translation:poiema - we get poem from it.product- like fabric, artwork, thing that is made)created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do.

I Want to be something beautiful! A materpiece created by him....... like a beautiful handknit, a painting. He knows how to speak my language.....

Now, The Message version:

Ephesians 2:7-11 Now God has us where He wants us, with all the time in this world and the next to shower grace and kindness upon us in Christ Jesus. Saving us is all His idea, and all his work. All we do is trust him enough to do it. It's God's gift from start to finish! We dont play the major role. If we did, we'd probably go around bragging that we'd done the whole thing! No, we neither make nor save ourselves. God does both the making and saving. He creates each of us by Christ Jesus to join him in the work he does, the good work he has gotten ready for us to do, work we had better be doing.

Just a quote to share......



"You must pray with all your might. That does not mean saying your prayers, or sitting gazing about in church or chapel with eyes wide open while someone else says them for you. It means fervent, effectual, untiring wrestling with God. This kind of prayer be sure the devil and world and your own Indolent, unbelieving nature will oppose. They will pour water on this flame."

- Willaim Booth