October 5th- Day 5

"For you have formed my inward parts,

You knitted me together in my mothers womb.

I am fearfully and wonderfully made!!!" ~Psalm 139:13

Today I am blogging about THREE

of the many things I am passionate about

knitting,

Painting/art,

and Little G- Down Syndrome awareness.

I think it takes talent and creativity to blend the three together

but that is where God comes in!

God created each and every one of us.

We have gifts and talents,

a part of the "big picture".

No matter who we are.

You.

Me.

Little G.

Each and every one of us.

each with our different abilities.

Our life has purpose and meaning.

When we first met our daughter

it set in motion a chain of events

and deep feelings in my being.

I had to let go of many of the thoughts and ideas I had about her

because what I believed was wrong.

I have never given birth to a child with a label

like Down Syndrome or "special needs" before

So I dont know what it feels like,

but I do know the feeling

seeing your child for the first time and wondering

"what does our future look like?"

Will she ever speak?

Will she run, jump and play like other children?

Will I ever hear the word Mama?

I have gradually settled into

what being little Gs mama looks like

feels like

Yes, she is learning to speak,

Yes she is making progress,

yes she has real thoughts

and can remember people shes only met twice three months ago.

I can teach her a sign and instantly she is using it appropriately.

I can have hopes and dreams for her future.

I can sit with a beautiful skein of yarn and tell her what it is

and she can learn to say the word yarn

and touch it and feel it

slipping through her fingers

as we wind it into a "ball"

And repeat over and over

"Ball..... yaaaaahn yaahn"

sign the letter Y" Ya ya Yaaahn"

I can show her my little needles

and show her a knitted sock.

"See, mommy likes to knit. Make socks. "

she then signs socks and says "sckaas"

Put them on her little feet.

and know in my heart.

God created her.

He had a plan all along.

How honored I feel.

Such a humbling thing

to be a part of HIS plan in her life.

And I can dream dreams of us knitting together.......

Isnt it all a beautiful mess!!!!!

I remain,

Under His wings,

Anna